My progress

So, as of July 1st. I'm down 32 lbs. I have a long road ahead of me because I still have 68 to lose. Excited to get back into my workouts hopefully tomorrow. I had a minor injury that is being checked today to see if it's all healed up. I am so excited to start back up. I really need to kick it  into gear. I want to have 50 of the 68 lbs. gone by summer. I know that's a high goal, but I'm sick of making excuses and saying, "It's too hard. It's time to suck it up and start saying, "It's too hard to continue living my life like this and shortening my life expectancy all because I want to be lazy and not proactive." Time to take back my life and be happy. Time to not be on the rollercoaster of emotions all of the time because I don't love myself in this skin. Brandon, Em, Logan, YOU ARE WORTH IT! YOU ARE WORTH IT ON THE DAYS THAT MOMMY DOESN'T FEEL SHE IS! YOU ARE WORTH ALL OF THIS HARD WORK.

More progress!

So, I lost more weight! Last week, I got a little off track, but this week's weigh in showed I fixed it and lost some more. No more messin' up like that! I had a rough week and to keep a long story short, had to finally be put on a couple muscle relaxers to fix me up. Once I finally broke down and got that taken care of, my weight loss started back up again. I am looking forward to being 70 lbs. lighter by Christmas. That's my goal anyway. I noticed something tonight that I thought I would share. When I don't get enough sleep and have to push myself to stay awake, I turn to food. When I'm talking about the stresses in my life to my husband, I'm opening the fridge. I have zeroed in on a few problems here and here are my solutions. Sleep whenever I can (day or night) and run when I'm stressing and talk to my husband when I'm done running. Then I can talk to him with a clear head and not be over emotional no matter what it is. My body is starting to crave exercise like it never has. I feel horrible when I don't exercise. Physically that is. My body demands the exercise. I'm really excited about my future. I'm starting to feel some self worth. It's not that losing weight will fix all of your problems, but when you are over 100 lbs. overweight, you can't make wise decisions or really care and love yourself. I'm to the point now that I can finally walk into a room and not feel like everyone is staring at the "fat girl". I still have TONS of weight to lose, but every time I see that number going down, I realize that I'm just that much closer. Every time the number goes down, I'm gonna work harder. So excited about what God is acheiving in my life through this weight loss. Feel free to click on any of the links on my page (I do get paid a little, with every click even if you don't participate in the promotions). Have a blessed week everyone.

Report on the Weigh In

Well last week was great! I lost 5 lbs.! I really needed a good jumpstart to encourage me. I really watched all of my calories and worked out 30 minutes 5x last week. I deserved every lost pound. I'm working on drinking more water this week. Shooting for a gallon a day. I know it sounds crazy, but my body will love me for it. I noticed today that I had much more endurance in my workout today. I had tons of energy afterward. It's crazy how just one week could have me so pumped. I'm not spending an arm and a leg to eat healthier either. I get the 90 calorie buns and make a turkey burger for lunch or eat a 4 oz chicken breast with cottage cheese and a salad. I will never be the girl that can starve myself or anything crazy like that. I like to eat! Obviously, that's what got me here to begin with. I just eat smarter. I know exactly what I'm putting into my body before it's on my plate. When I'm tempted to cheat, I just tell myself, "It's just food, is it really worth it?" I treat myself too. After shopping around (checking all the calorie counts) online at different places, I got a 150 calorie regular ice cream cone from McDonalds. You can eat at all of the places you ate before, just be smart. I know I can't walk in now and get an Angus burger. I know it is temporary pleasure, then I'm going to feel awful both physically and mentally for eating it. It's weird how your mindset changes. I have so much more energy. Last week, Aunt Flo (ask a friend if you don't know) came to visit. I was surprised I could move! Let alone work out for five days and eat healthy. Now I know that I can do this in any setting. Next weigh in is Saturday. I'm so excited!

Feeling a little defeated

I could sit and make excuses that are probably valid ones to everyone else, but I've gotten so much heavier in the past few months. A lot of it is due to stress, but it boils down to me not being proactive and me not taking charge of the being the best I can be. I wanted to write this post in case anyone has ever been in my position. I really need to kick it into gear. There are so many risk factors for being overweight. Some of these include:

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  Heart disease



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  Type 2 Diabetes



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  Sleep apnea



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  Certain types of cancer



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  Strokes



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  Osteoarthritis



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  Many many other risk factors

This is so heartbreaking for me to sit here and list all of these. I really believe though that making it real and typing these facts out will really help me. I really need to write down my daily agenda and see where I can be more active when completing my daily tasks. I have to get healthy. I love my husband and kids so much and I can't bear the thought of putting them through any of these horrible medical issues, because I made a choice to not take care of myself. Taking baby steps this week in the right direction, but application is the key to all of the great resources that I'm receiving this week. If anyone has any comments on how I could add exercise to my daily routine, I would love it! Also, any low calorie, budget friendly recipes are great! As always encouragement and support from everyone is what's gonna be a huge part of getting me where I need to be.